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The Death card shows Death himself riding on a white horse, holding a black and white flag. Death is portrayed as a skeleton as the skeletal bones are the part of the body that survives death. The armour he is wearing indicates that he is invincible and unconquerable. Indeed, no-one has yet triumphed over death. The horse that Death rides is white, the colour of purity. Death is therefore the ultimate purifier. All things are reborn fresh, new and pure. Notice even the bishop paying homage to him. All sectors of the human race are represented here – men, women and children – showing that Death does not discern between age, race or gender. 

The banner that Death carries has a black background, indicating an absence of light. The white rose, on the other hand, indicates beauty, purification and immortality. In the background of the card, there is a rising sun, a sign of immortality. The sun appears to ‘die’ each night but is reborn fresh and new every morning. The two pillars are guarding the gateway to the sun, symbolising the knowledge needed to gain immortality. The boat on the water in the background is the ferry that transports the souls across the River Styx. The background is a neutral grey, again showing Death’s impartiality. The card's number is 13, sacred to the Goddess as there are thirteen moons in a year.  

Death is symbolic of the ending of a major phase or aspect of your life that may bring about the beginning of something far more valuable and important. You must close one door in order to open another. You need to put the past behind you and part ways, ready to embrace new opportunities and possibilities. It may be difficult to let go of the past at times but you will soon see how important it is so that you can bring renewal and transformation into your life. If you resist these necessary endings, you may experience pain, both emotionally and physically but if you exercise your creative imagination and visualize a new possibility, you allow more constructive patterns to emerge. 

Similarly, Death indicates a time of significant transformation, change and transition. You need to profoundly transform yourself and clear away any of the old in order to bring in the new. Any change at this time should be welcomed as a positive, cleansing, transformative force in your life. The death and clearing away of limiting factors can open the door to a wider, more satisfying experience of life. 

The Death card contains elements of a sudden and unexpected change. You may feel as though you are caught in the path of sweeping change and cannot escape its effects. Though the immediate thought is toward the negative, an end need not mean failure. The loss could be a series of unexpected surprises that bring an end to a period of turmoil or problems. You feel you can no longer go along with the status quo and want things to change radically. Many changes are going to take place to enable a new direction to emerge. 

Finally, Death is an indication that you need to learn to let go of unhealthy attachments in your life to pave the way to a fuller, more fulfilled life of deeper meaning and significance. Death teaches you to let go of outworn and outgrown ways of life and move forward. This is a perfect card to use to break a bad habit or pattern of behaviour. This is a time of eliminating excess and cutting out what is not necessary in your life. This may be a good time to purge old belongings, memories and ‘baggage’ that is getting in your way. 

I've been told that 2017 is going to be a big year for me. By the palmist, the psychic I saw, the card readings I've done myself, and with other signs leading me to where I am today.

If you add up the individual numbers for 2017, it ends up as a 1, meaning that this year is the beginning of a new cycle, a new chapter. That's why there were so many loose ends being tied up in 2016, because it adds up to 9, the end of a chapter.

The new year began with a NEW MOON.

And the first 13th of the year landed on a Friday, and weirdly enough, on the 13th, the moon was in leo. So I mean c'mon, the universe is just screaming at me by this point.

If you have read my blog for a long time, you might recall that I was born on a Friday the 13th. August 13, 1993.

Apparently August 13th is the day the Virgin Mary was taken back to heaven? And then was resurrected on the 15th, which is when they celebrate her assumption? I don't know, I googled the meaning behind 13 and that popped up. Also, the Mayan calendar started on August 13th apparently.

13 is a number that represents femininity because I guess there are 13 gates into a woman's body, and because there are 13 moons a calendar year (the goddess of the moon is the goddess of femininity since a full cycle of the moon is 28 days as with a woman's menstrual cycle).

Oh also, Friday is the day of Venus, who is a huge symbol of feminine strength.

13 also points to Mother Mary=femininity since M is the 13th letter of the alphabet. M is also the letter my name starts with.

Know what else is a symbol of femininity? Spiders. Know what follows me/is on my spirit totem pole? A spider.

Know what's another powerful symbol of femininity? The ocean, which is controlled by the moon.

August's full moon is called the sturgeon moon (aka a FISH= water element) and is also a feminine moon.

Wanna know what my name means? Dweller of the sea.
Wanna know where I was born? A town at the edge of the sea.
Wanna know what the town's name means? Land between two waters. It literally has the word SEA in the name.

This is a little write-up on my name:

Dark and mysterious with stunningly good looks. A darkangel. Highly creative in music and art. Siren voice that could seduce or destroy. The leader of the pack without assuming so, likes to stay in the background, but everyone knows who to ask for direction and ideas. Always conflicted within the light and the dark, walking the line between the two as easy as a tightrope walker.

Wanna know what else has a siren voice? A FUCKING MERMAID. WANNA KNOW SOME ORIGINS OF MY NAME? IT'S A FUCKING WELSH WATER-SPIRIT AKA MERMAID.

KNOW WHAT ELSE WALKS BETWEEN LIGHT AND DARK? DEATH. DEATH'S NUMBER IS THIR-FUCKING-TEEN.

The glyph that represents both the beginning and ending of the Aztec calendar is called the "13 cane", symbolizing the death of one's cycle, with the rebirth of another. The Alpha and Omega at the same time. Also, the 13 rune (called the Eiwaz) is also the balance point between light and dark; creative force and destructive forth; the heavens and the underworld. It represents death but also signifies eternal life. It's a circle.

My name is a compound Old Welsh name made up of the elements meaning sea, bright and circle.
I was born in the eighth month of the year. 8 is a symbol of infinity, aka a circle.
8 divided by 2 is 4 and numerology-wise: 13=1+3=4.

Let's dive deeper into my name here.

My name is based around The Mists of Avalon; derived from "Morgan le Fay" AKA the lady of the lake.
"The lady of the lake" has 13 letters.
She is an enchantress who's also King Arthur's half-sister.
There are 12 knights of the round table PLUS King Arthur= 13.

In Norse mythology, 13 is a symbol of the goddess Freya and her day is Friday. This is especially weird because Freya is what BB wanted to name our child if we had a girl.
ALSO because his birthday is on the 4th and 1+3=4. Also because August=8 which is 4 multiplied twice. And lastly his favourite number is 4 and his favourite animal is a lion and I'm a leo. And 1+9+9+3=22 and since in numerology you add each digit until you get a singular number, 2+2= 4.

In ancient mythology, 13 represents the GREAT MOTHER GODDESS. AKA A GODDESS OF FEMININITY. Also, 13 is how many people typically are in a coven, there are 13 principles of Wiccan belief, 13 witches at the Salem witch trials. I mention that because, HMMM who is this "great mother goddess"?

Speaking of witch, there's this book called The Witch? It's by B. Gregory Lewis. It's got a lot of 13s:

13 characters
13 chapters
13 letters – one to begin each chapter
13 letter theme word
Start of chapter one: page 13 (in the first edition)
ISBN bar code of 13 digits: 978-0-9809201-0-9
Dewey decimal number assigned: 813,6
The original first edition books were wrapped in paper and sealed with a wax “W”, upside down it is “M” the 13th letter of the alphabet
Author pen name on the cover: 13 letters

So which witch is THE Witch? Reading about stuff got me kinda of confused but long story short, it's the Roman form of the Greek goddess Artemis (who is the goddess of the moon, sister of Apollo), Diana.

Did I mention that when it comes to yin and yang, the moon, and femininity is yin. Wanna know which hand is yin? It's the left one. Wanna know which hand I write with? The left one.

BUT I DIGRESS.

Diana is the combined form of the Hecate (?) which is associated with witchcraft, light, magic, ghosts, etc. The Hecate is known as the "Great Mother Goddess" and rules over the earth, sea, and sky. The Hecate was the goddess of the moon with 3 different forms: Selene (the moon in heaven), Artemis (the huntress on Earth), and Persephone (the destroyer in the underworld).

So basically, Diana is Artemis and Artemis is the part of the Hecate on Earth. Make sense?

Diana comes from "dium" meaning sky, bright sky, and daylight. She is known as the giver of light and life. I'll take this moment to remind you of the fact that one of the elements that make up my name is "bright", and also the fact that I'm a leo which is the ONLY sign ruled by the sun, and even further still: since the sun dominates leo, it's the fire sign that holds the element of illumination as opposed to power (Aries-Mars) or growth (Sagittarius-Jupiter). It is said that out of herself, Diana divided the darkness and the light.

"Always conflicted within the light and the dark, walking the line between the two as easy as a tightrope walker."

Also, the Romanian word for "fairy" (P.S Morgan le Fay, le fay mean fairy), Portuguese word for "water nymph"(morgens are Welsh water spirits), and Spanish word for "morning" all come from the name Diana.

She is the goddess of virginity (UM HELLO MOTHER MARY).

Diana apparently wears a crescent moon medallion (which I think is a weird coincidence cause I wear one of those under my shirt almost every single day and have for almost a year now) and is worshipped on AUGUST 13TH.

Her sanctuary is at the lake of Nemi (HELLO OUR LADY OF THE LAKE AKA MARY AGAIN, and also hello, Morgan le Fay aka the lady of THE FUCKING LAKE). The lady of the lake sometimes is called Vivienne and is known as a "corrupt form of Diana". 

Diana is known as the queen of witches (meaning wise women healers). Morgan le Fay is famously known as a healer, witch, and shapeshifter. The term fata morgana (Morgan le Fay in Italian), refers to a mirage that appears while out at sea. It is sometimes thought as magic cast to appear as land to lure sailors to their deaths (*cough*mermaids*cough*).

So if the Hecate is a triple goddess that combines as Diana, and Diana is the lady of the lake. And Vivienne is the lady of the lake but also a corrupt version of Diana. It would make sense that Morgan le Fay is Vivienne who is Diana who is the combined version of the Hecate BECAUSE SHE'S A SHAPESHIFTER.

Also because it is said that 3 queens escort Arthur to Avalon. This could be Morgan le Fay split into her triple-goddess form.

Morrigan is another form of Morgan le Fay and is a triple-goddess of Irish mythology; she is known as the "Phantom Queen" or "Great Queen". She's associated with fate, and the circle of life; birth as well as death. She is a water goddess who rules over rivers and lakes. She is the goddess of death and DEATH IS THE NUMBER 13 IN TAROT AND I HAVE COMPLETED THIS ENORMOUS CIRCLE.

I BID YOU GOOD DAY.