Loss of Inspiration.

Ugh.

134.0 this morning. Oh well, it's to be expected. I DID HELLA GOOD ON MY PSYCH TEST THOUGH! +A!

That's basically where the positiveness ends actually... :/

I wasn't planning on eating today even though I originally was planning to eat. Well... I ate. fml.

I had a fruit bowl AND half a peach. Was it good? Meh. Did I feel full? Meh. Did I want more? YUP. Did I feel guilty? NOPE. I still want food, I want a PB & J sandwich, I want cheez whiz, I want cookies, and a cinnamon bun, and KD, and a grilled cheese sandwich, and pizza, and pizza pops, and chocolate...

I WANT FOOD.

sometimes i think it'd be easier just to be happy, fat...

LOL, like that's ever going to happen. Ugh, I need inspiration, I feel myself slipping, loosing grip. Will Thanksgiving be a disaster? I fucking hope not...

Think thin! GIVE ME INSPIRATION xoxo

♥, Mint.

La Salade.

Hello all you beautiful thin ladiessss!

This morning I was at 133.8! :D yesyesyes! So happy!

Today was pretty good, watched Glee, had a French test, you know, the norm. In writing class however, this guy beside me was eating that white cheddar flavoured popcorn. I don't really like popcorn but I LOVE that kind; and as I was sitting there smelling it's lovely smell, I realized why I love it.

I love that popcorn because my dad loves that popcorn! He'd always buy a bag for us to share when we'd watch a movie together and now, that popcorn reminds me of him, and it makes me happy.

That's when I found out that a lot of the foods I like are linked to certain happy memories with my family. Good to know now! That'll help me for sure in the future.

I also had my salad today and have now dedicated this post to SALAD TIPS:

First of all, here is a picture of my normal small salad from the cafeteria on campus:

So, as you can see it's a small veggie salad with an iceberg base, topped with cherry tomatoes, carrots, pickles, banana peppers, and cucumber. I usually get green pepper too but they had none today QQ. Also, I top my salad with about a tbsp of vinaigrette dressing. Unfortunately, none of the ones they offer are low-cal :(

And here are "Mint's Official Salad Tips to make sure you get the Least Amount of Calories, Sugar, and FAT, out of Your Salad, Tips":

1. Make sure you get a small. Actually, make this your number one rule about anything you get. Less is more! And just remember, you're eating so that you don't die a fat whale, not because it'll "fill you up". Grow some balls.
2. Try to make sure iceberg is your lettuce leaf of choice (it has 8 cal per 1 cup), however, it has no nutritional benefit (personally I don't care). If you do want nutrition though, get spinach.
3. Cucumbers and pickles (though it may seem strange in a salad at first) are saviours! Cucumbers have 8 cal per 1/2 cup and since pickles are the same thing only salty, it has roughly the same amount.
4. Banana peppers and jalapeños (I'm too chicken to try jalapeños) are also, AMAZING. They add flavour with their heat, and boost your metabolism! LOVELOVELOVE
5. Oh, and go vegetarian if you're strong enough ;) it saves you a TON of calories and you don't hurt cute little animals! BUT, if you just can't do it. Go with a fish (tuna) or chicken as a topper!

Dressing a salad at home:

• As stated below, always try to avoid a creamy dressing, and try to stick with vinaigrettes. The difference in calories is AMAZING. One tbsp of low cal Italian is only 5 cal! However, keep in mind that not all low cal options are as gracious as the amazing Italian dressing!

• I've mentioned this before but not as an official salad tip haha but, when I make my salads at home I usually just use vinegar to dress it (red wine vinegar is the best). I skip the oil because I honestly don't notice a difference and I don't want the fat haha Try it for yourself, but stay away from sugary vinegars like balsamic!

Dressing at a restaurant:

• First off, if you know it comes with a creamy dressing, check to see if you can have it switched to a vinaigrette!

• If they don't have vinaigrette or you don't want to be a hassle, be less of a hassle and ask for the dressing on the side! When you get your meal, dip the fork into the dressing and then get a bite of food on top.

• And lastly, if you reallllly don't want to be a hassle with the waiter/chef, simply try to wipe off as much of the dressing as you can to avoid extra calories!

WARNINGS:

1. NEVER, get cheese. Like, NEVER. Just give it up. You don't notice it in a salad or anything else (minus dishes where the cheese is the main flavour) that much. And it can add 100 extra calories, easy.
2. Don't get black olives. They may seem smart because they're pickled and all but they're loaded with FAT. Ever wonder where olive oil comes from? Yeah.
3. If given the choice between red and green bell peppers to put on a salad, always go with green. Less sugar, and less calories.
4. NEVER go with a creamy dressing. That's like the worst move EVER. Low cal ranch dressing has 45 cal per tbsp, and a whopping 148 cal in the original. And just a heads up, restaurants never go for low cal.
5. Lastly, be careful with pickles and such! They are amazing, yes. But they also have LOTS of salt! So don't go crazy with them! And make sure you drink lots of water along with it!!

I know it's sort of crazy to analyze a salad so much but hey! You do what you gotta do lol I hope these tips were semi-useful though! :) And if you want any other tips about certain dishes (including meat ones) ask away! I have lots of information to share! :)

Think thin! xoxo

♥, Mint.

Scary.

Helloo to my TEN followers! :3

Yesterday, as planned, I went and got my pita from extreme pita.

It's just a small veggie pita filled with: lettuce, tomato, green pepper, pickles, banana pepper, and cucumber. With tzatziki (I loveeee tzatziki) and low-cal Italian dressing. When I eat it I rip off as much of the actual pita part as possible and throw it out (who wants extra carbs? Not me.), so technically it's not as many calories as one would think (I think I worked it out to be 240 at most).

WELL, when I ate it yesterday I got rid of more pita than usual and was so extremely stuffed. Like uber full, I felt so sick for the rest of the night. I also started freaking out about gaining weight. I felt like I'd gained 2-3 pounds and I was NOT happy about that. So I drank a bunch of water to try to flush it out.

Let's just say last night wasn't the best. I am never eating that much again, and never eating at extreme pita again. I just can't handle it, and I could still taste/smell it when I went to sleep.

blech.

LUCKILY though, I only went up 0.1 pounds! Thank GOD lol Next time I eat something with substance (Thanksgiving), I am definitely going to eat slow so that I don't get too full.

Today I fasted again with Evie (it feels good to be empty) and wrote my first uni test EVER! It was in psych, and I really hope I did well... I think I did well, but I don't want to get my hopes up lol I hate defeat :/ I also counted how many stairs I have to walk up to get to my room.

SIXTY.

I don't know if that a lot or not, but at home my set of stairs was only thirteen lol no wonder my thighs are looking a bit better! :)

Anyways, talk to you soon! Think thin girls! xoxo

♥, Mint.

Thinspo!

Hiiii! :)

Today I'm at 134.6!! :D That means my first thinspo post and I get to have a pita! WOO!

I've also decided that I might be pushing it by trying to lose 4.6 pounds by Saturday, so I might change my goal to being at a new lw by next Thursday.

In response to Lina's comment:

It's just a small vegetarian salad from the caf. here on campus. I'll take a picture of it the next time I get one! (a.k.a Wednesday)

And now... let the thinspo commence!

Think thin! xoxo

♥, Mint.

Morning!

Gooooood morning! :)

Weighed in at 135.1 that means tomorrow equals fooood, and equals my very first thinspo post! :D are you as excited as I am!?!?

This is my plan for the next two weeks (until I leave campus for Thanksgiving):

• monday: pita (280 cal)
• tuesday: fast with Evie (day 20 of her ABC diet)
• wednesday: salad
• thursday: salad
• friday: KAPPA ROLL! (if I'm at 130)
• saturday/sunday: fast
• monday: salad
• tuesday: salad
• wednesday: salad
• thursday: fast!

My goal is to be at 128 by the time I get to Grannie's house. That'll be a new low weight for me! :D It also give me leverage room, because I'll probably gain over that weekend... :/

I hope it all works out!

Think thin lovlies! xoxo

♥, Mint.

Skinny Love.

Hi there!

So, I'm at 135.8 this morning! Which is what I was hoping for but just barely! >.< Hopefully I'm at 135.0 by tomorrow or close!

Today I didn't do much, read my psych homework, looked at food porn, organized my meals for the next two weeks, and listened to music!

Today was day 17 of my friend Evie's ABC diet! She's doing so awesome! And since today's her second fast day (and because I'm still not 135.0 or less) I fasted with her! :) I'm not planning on eating tomorrow too and that's when I realized that I haven't eaten since Sunday. I just did a week long fast without realizing! haha well, THAT was easy!

my face is feeling thinner... :)

In response to Amaris' comment:

I'm at UBCO getting my BA in psychology! And then my doctoral degree after that :) Very competitive I guess, so I have to study hard! P.s I absolutely love the song you posted on your blog, it's my new favourite! :)

Anyway, that's about it! Think thin ladies! xoxo

♥, Mint.

Food Porn.

Hi there! :)

So, I've hit a new low. I've discovered food porn. It's where you look at delicious pictures of foods and say "mm!" every two seconds in your head.

For the last HOUR, I've been looking at desserts. but not just any desserts, THESE desserts! And have come to a conclusion:

Food porn should be banned. lol it's too dangerous!! You know how when you look at thinspo you get triggered to lose some more weight? Yeah well food porn triggers you into gaining weight.

It's terrible and requires a LOT of will-power and yelling at yourself to not run out and buy a cookie or cake or BIG BAG OF SUGAR lol.

On another note, I'm at 136.0 today! One more pound and then I deserve some food and have met my goal for the week! :)

Hopefully tomorrow I'm in the 135's!

Wish me luuuck! xoxo

♥, Mint.

Nothing.

Hey again!

Two posts in one day, are you sick of me yet? :3

So I just got back from creative writing where the class critiqued my poems (including "Ghost."), and it went much better than I expected! Some people said they were their favourites!

Immediately after, I phoned my mom to tell her how it went over and how well I did; however, she decided to mention how she saw this one girl's mom today. This girl, used to be my friend, and her whole family is exactly why I hate my old town.

In my town there's a little group of people who have a lot of money but don't know the meaning of hard work. "Old money", I'd supposed you'd call it. Anyway, this girl isn't very smart, isn't very original, and isn't very good at anything.

BUT THE WHOLE TOWN, thinks she's a miracle...

In grade 9 after I'd been into photography for awhile and starting posting my prints and getting into it (and doing VERY WELL I might add), she decided that she wanted it.

So her mom bought her this deluxe digital camera with all the bells and whistles for Christmas, and then her mom got her photographer friend to allow her to be an intern on a few jobs.

This girl then put her pictures Facebook and the whole town oo'd and awe'd at crappy work.

This girl now decided that that will be her career and has gone to school for it. But wait! Before she could get in she needed to make a portfolio because it's an arts degree, which means you should be into art.

But this girl isn't very creative, and she doesn't really like art. So she googled craft ideas and got her friend to help her because she left it to the last minute. And guess what? She got in! But oh wait, she's too stupid to make the basic requirements so she has to go to a different school with her mommy's money.

This new school is an express program so she has to work oh so hard! She's such a trooper! Doing an amazing job! She's so talented!

AM I THE ONLY ONE WHO SEES SHE IS FAKE AS FUCK AND DOESN'T HAVE AN ORIGINAL BONE IN HER BODY OR CREATIVE THOUGHT IN HER HEAD?

And why does my mom have to constantly go along with it? Why does she always tell me how amazing she is? Why doesn't she have anything to say about how well I'm doing? How hard I'm working?

WHY DOES SHE ALLOW THAT WHOLE TOWN TO THINK I'M NOT EVEN AT SCHOOL?

WHY DOESN'T SHE LET THEM KNOW THAT I'M GOING TO BECOME A FREAKIN' DOCTOR?

WHY AREN'T I GOOD ENOUGH?

because i'm nothing...

Sorry to bother you with my rant.

♥, Mint.

BAM.

Hi there! :)

So I've finally separated the mind from the body. I'm in control now, the mind, is in control.

I'm at 136.5! Lost a pound from yesterday! :D I'm teaching my stupid fat body that in order for it to get what it wants (some food because it's so selfish and pathetic), it needs to show me results.

1.5 lbs until I'm at my weekly goal of 135! :D It will happen! >.<

I have the pow-ah! lmao

ANYWAY, tonight I have my creative writing class where everyone gets to critique the poems we've written... I'm not excited. A whole circle of people analyzing you, judging you. bleh.

Think thin ladies! And don't give up! xoxo

♥, Mint.

Plateau.

FML.

I'm getting really pissed off now lol 137.5 AGAIN.

I should probably eat something to switch up my metabolism buuuuut, I don't want to. I don't deserve food at the moment, I mean. I haven't done anything to deserve it! I haven't lost anything...

So today it's coffee coffee coffee diet coke, walking walking walking.

And hopefully something changes...

wish me luck?

Think thin xoxo

♥, Mint.

Ba-da-ba-ba!

Helloo~

I'm still at 137.5 but it's okay because today I am HAPPY.

I don't know why, but it's alright with me! I think I realized that as long as I don't give up, I'll get there sooner or later. People don't eat 300 calls or less and stay fat, so I've just got to keep that in mind.

Oh hey! Did I mention that I'm on a liquid fast until I reach 135? It'll be irritating if it takes too long (day 2 now) but I'm just taking advantage of the fact that my stomach doesn't growl anymore. I love it :3 The only thing that's bothersome is that I get suuuper tired sometimes, BUT all I need to do is crack open a diet coke and I'm GOOD TO GO!

And I'm pretty sure my hair is falling out... or I'm shedding like crazy lol either way it's annoying as hell.

Ummm, what else, what else? OH! My psych prof showed us this video today! It's cute and colourful and I like it, so click here to view!

That's about it! I hope I lose some weight by tomorrow... I had a diet pill so hopefully my metabolism is going a bit!

Think thinnnnnn~!

Love LoVe LOVE ♥, Mint!

Whale.

Fucking whaleeeee.

Greedy, fat whale. That's what I am.

137.5

fuck.

Yesterday I had:

• a salad
• a fruit bowl

Why did I have both? Because I'm greedy!! I'm so disappointed in myself... I don't know if I want to eat today. Maybe I'll get a smoothie still just for the protein... Ugh, idk.

I hate myself I really do. I wish I wasn't so fat, so needy, so fucking annoying! >.<

I need to be under 135 by the end of this week. And I should be, that's a lot of time to lose 2.5 pounds.. but if I'm not, then I'm not eating until I am!

end. of. story.

Think thinnnnn! xoxo

♥, Mint.

OH HAI.

OH HAI GUESS WAT:

My knees have stopped touching! FINALLY!

Still fat, but progress is progress, AM I RITE?

Just wanted to share :p

♥♥

137.3

Morning!

How did I get to 137.3? I have no fucking idea lol

The only productive thing I did yesterday was clean the washroom. Did a few squats in the shower really make me lose 1.4 pounds? Oh well, I'm not complaining! :p

Now all I have to lose is at least 0.4 lbs by tomorrow and I've met my goal for Monday! Everyday keeps getting betterrrr!

Today I'm hopefully going to town and doing laundry, so that should burn some calories for sure! I'm planning on having a salad for supper today and a booster juice for Monday (I'm craving sugar soo fucking bad- cookiescookiescookies! And need to get protein somehow).

Sleep sucked last night, there was this huge dj party in the field that went to 2 a.m and even after it finished I was tossing and turning. Oh well, I guess...

SORRY MY THOUGHTS ARE SO RANDOM! I'm just so happy with the weight loss :) the 140s and 138s are hard to get past for me for some reason, so I'm stoked!

Think thin! :)

♥, Mint.

P.s! I always freak out that maybe my thoughts of food will make me fat. Does this happen to anyone else?

Greet the Day.

Good morning starshine! The Earth says, "Hello!" ♪

I'm 138.7 this morning. I lost next to nothing but that's because I didn't do anything yesterday.

today will be better.

I'm fasting today because my texting buddy Evie is on day 10 of the ABC diet, so I'm showing my support :)

Also today I'm going to get stuff done! I'm going to do the readings I've been procrastinating on, I'm going to go for a walk, I'm going to wash the bathroom, and I'm going to see if there's ANYWHERE on campus that I can pick up a fashion magazine.

Which reminds me! I've decided that every time I lose 5 pounds (so 135.0, 130.0, 125.0 etc) I'll do a thins post! And do I ever have a lot of thins! :)

I'm going to try to be at 136.0-136.9 for Monday, so wish me luck!

thinthinthin, i want to be thin.

Have an excellent Saturday! xoxo

♥♥, Mint.

Dreamlike State.

Hi there,

I only lost 0.7 lbs yesterday but I'm okay with it. It's a loss, not a gain. If I gained, the world would've ended. If I get any fatter, I won't be able to fit anything, I'd fall through the Earth into the pits of hell. I'd get kicked out though because the smell of my fat burning would piss everyone off.

i don't belong here.

My thoughts have been going 'round and 'round like a merry-go-round. I think of the tastes of all the things I love. The lighting of when I remember eating it, the smells, the smiles.

If I'm thin I could eat that stuff again. I could be happy, just like before.

But then my thoughts are interrupted by the voice, "You can't eat it because you won't stop. You can't eat it because you'll become even more disgusting. You can't eat, you can't eat, you can't eat. Food isn't what makes you happy anyway, it's love. Is food love? No. You don't even deserve love you fat cow. If you eat you'll feel hungry again, do you want that? The embarrassing tummy growl? If you eat you'll get your period again. Do you want blood pouring out of you like some sick monster? No. If you eat, you will feel. You will feel regret, hatred. You will die and no one will care. No one will go to your funeral because your fat fills the room. Don't eat."

when will this ride end?

Today for supper I'm having:

• a romaine heart with vinegar (30 cals)

**tip: I only put vinegar on my salad because it has no calories and has the same amount of flavour as a store bought dressing, or if you add fatty fat oil to it. Just saying. HOWEVER, stay away from sugary vinegars like balsamic because, well because they're sugary lol.

Right now I'm listening to "Avril 14th" by Aphex Twin on repeat. I love this song, it's so beautiful...

Think thin beauties xoxo

♥, Mint.

Frustrated.

Hi!

So, today was better than yesterday for sure. I actually laughed for the first time in two weeks, and not a fake laugh either :)

I got my pita but it wasn't as good as the feeling I had this morning when I stepped on the scale. Which is probably a good thing because then I'd want more, more, more. Also, I ripped off as much of the pita as I could to reduce calories so it was def. under 240 :)

"nothing tastes as good as skinny feels..."

I've also been surfing the ED web and have come across a few interesting things. Some good, some really annoying. Let's start with the good, shall we?

When you wikipedia "fasting" there's a picture of a girl who has done 3 consecutive 40 day fasts. Here's the before:

... and here's the after:

See what a little control can do? I'm inspired :)

She apparently did it for religious reasons but she lost about 100 pounds! Click here to creep her youtube if you're interested!

Another interesting tid-bit of information on wiki's fasting page is a quote from Buddha:

'I, monks, do not eat a meal in the evening. Not eating a meal in the evening I, monks, am aware of good health and of being without illness and of buoyancy and strength and living in comfort. Come, do you too, monks, not eat a meal in the evening. Not eating a meal in the evening you too, monks, will be aware of good health and..... and living in comfort.'

A.k.a, don't eat and you'll feel good about your choices lol. I don't know, I just liked the fact that Buddha said to put the fork down hahaha

Now on to the thing that pissed me the fuck off! I've been on Pro-ana Angels lately and have been looking at their diets/recipes for any new tips that I might not know about. What I found was kinda horrible. :/

The recipes consist of brownies, breads, and pizzas... and that's not the worst part. Even though they may be "health conscious" they definitely aren't, "ana conscious". They have sugar (ever heard of, splenda?), they have oil (ever heard of non-sweetened apple sauce?), and they have carbs and calories galore!

I'd think a website that's devoted to EDs would have, diluted soups, celery covered in hot sauce, and lettuce wraps, as recipes. So that sort of shocked, and disappointed me.

Their diets? They're okay, they have the basic ones like the ABC, vegan model, and Russian gymnast diet. But they also have: the bread and butter diet (where you eat a piece of bread WITH butter) at every meal, along with other food! There's the chicken soup diet too that includes cereals, milks, cheeses, and even bagels, so again, FULL meals.

Now I'm not saying that the site sucks or anything, but I just thought that it was weird having those particular diets/recipes on a pro-ana site. Or is it just me? :/

If you watch "Thin" those girls have 100-200 calories a day MAX. That what we're all aiming for. Anything over means you're fat and have no control.

I'm fat, I have no control, that's why I need to eat.

If I owned that site I wouldn't even let those thoughts go into my visitors minds. If I want to eat brownies and breads, fine. But I wouldn't recommend it to others as a way to become thin. My site would be bad ass. I'd have the lowest calories for maximum loss. It'd be for the strong willed who want to succeed...

But that's just me I guess...

Sorry for the ranty post! And thanks for the compliments on my poem/the support from all of you! :)

Think thin! xoxo

♥, Mint.

PITA.

Hey thereeee!

Just a quick hello to let you know I'm back in the 130s! FINALLYYYYY.

I'm at 139.8, which doesn't really amount to much but it still counts! :)

So that meansssssss, I deserve my pita! :D

I'm so excited haha back on track!

I'll post later loverss! xoxo

♥, Mint.

Procrastinate.

Hey there,

Not the best day today...

I miss my mom and my home, and feel alone, but what else is new?

I'm tired as hell but when I try to sleep my head races with ana thoughts; and right now, I'm procrastinating on my readings. I probably shouldn't do that on the second week in...

Today I ate:

• my bowl of fruit, as planned.

Oh, and if you check, I'm at 140.8 now. Lower than before, but not where I wanted to be...

Tomorrow will be better? doubt it.

xoxo

♥, Mint.

Ghost- Revised.

Hello!

So I re-wrote "Ghost." and am thinking of using it for my creative writing class. Nothing gets higher marks than sorrow, am I right? And if anyone reads it please let me know how I can make it better!

I weighed 141.8 this morning and ate nothing. However I'm terrified that I gained. I've been on the scale so many times since and it keeps saying 143.5, 143.5, ONE FORTY THREE POINT FIVE.

Which led to me feeling worthless, selfish, and greedy. Which led me to thinking of how I just want to curl up into a tiny ball until I'm thin, which led me to re-writing "Ghost." lol

However, I did use some of this time to plan my next few meals:

• tomorrow: fruit bowl that I bought yesterday (about 140 cal at most)
• thursday: extreme pita (240 cal at most) if I'm in the 130s. If not, nothing.
• friday: salad at the caff
• saturday: I'll ride the bus myself to Wal-mart, buy a cucumber, and make a little salad with it and the lettuce I bought yesterday
• sunday: same thing

Dear God, I hope I didn't gain...

♥, Mint.

Fat.

Hiiii,

Do you ever get so disgusted with yourself that you can't focus on anything else but your own self-loathing?

That's where I am right now.

I stepped on the scale this morning, without the comfort of my heavy pjs and weighed 143.

F-A-T.

However, I have an excuse at the ready because that's how pathetic I am. My excuse is that I got my period.

Fat fucking hell. That's what I get for stuffing my face like the cow I am back in June... My period, can go fuck itself.

Today I ate much too much:

• clementine orange for breakfast (right after weighing myself. Make sense? No.)
• diet coke
• caramilk bar- 240 (went to Wal-mart and lost control for a minute)
• pint of blueberries
• about 4 strawberries

I've just decided that I'm not eating tomorrow, screwwwww that. I just wish this nightmare of fat would end... 14 years seem to be long enough don't you think? I wish I wasn't so weak!!

if you're tired of even the fat girl being skinnier than you why don't you just do something about it?

Tomorrow I only have psych in the morning and then after I'm working on creative writing (poetry) with a friend who lives off campus, which means easy escape plan for food... again!

On another note, I wish that I had a pro-ana friend! It'd be so easy to keep each other in line... It'd be like "Winter Girls" but in real life! HOW DO I FIND A PRO-ANA PAL AT MY SCHOOL!?!?

I guess it's just another thing to wish for at 11:11...

Think thin! And don't be a fat ass like me! xoxo

♥, Mint.

P.s! Karolina, I read a bit of your blog and have followed you back! :) I really enjoy your words of encouragement and your writing style so I decided that we should be friends! lol E-mail me sometime! ♥♥

Little Miss Muffet.

Hello!

Yesterday I ate:

• nothing!! :D

Hurray! And it was easy.

Getting out of lunch was easy because the girls I went to the beach with (who live off campus btw) didn't eat lunch LOL finally! Some people who aren't always wanting food! And then to get out of supper I told my campus friend that I got like no reading done at the beach (which is partly true), and that I had already picked up supper and would eat in my room (which is of course, a lie).

lying is great.

Now the hard part is breaking my fast.. I know it was only for a day but you have to slowly ease yourself into not eating, otherwise it's just hard to function I think. Breaking a fast for me has been hard lately because I usually binge after which makes the whole fast pointless. But, because I'm on campus, and all the main restaurants are closed, I should be good.

I weighed myself this morning with my heavy pjs again and I'm 144.5, which equals 141.5! So if everything works out I should be in the 130s tomorrowwww!! Woo!

Oh! And you're probably wondering why the title is "Little Miss Muffet." aren't you? Well let me tell you a little tid- bit of information about Mint... I hate spiders and am super scared of them. But everyone's afraid of spiders right? No big deal! Unless they follow you.

YES, call me crazy but spiders seriously follow me. It's like they're drawn to me I swear! They even come into my dreams the little buggers!

I. HATE. SPIDERS.

So this morning I woke up and the first thing I see on the wall by the window is, OF COURSE, a spider. And I know he was watching me because as soon as I sat up, rubbing my eyes just incase I was imagining things, he ran behind the curtain.

My heart was pounding as I grabbed my mini dirt devil (which I had boughten just for these situations) and began inching towards the window. I stood there for a little while with the dirt devil close to my heart and my fringier ready on the trigger, seeing if it would dart out. After a few minutes of no movement I got a little bit of courage and began poking the curtain in random places (with the dirt devil of course) to see if that would make it move.

Nothing.

So there were no other options but to pull up the curtain slowly and hope for the best... As I got about halfway I SAW IT, and he saw me! He began descending just as the spider from Little Miss Muffet did but I was too fast. Within a moment's instant (and not even with a yelp from me I might add!) I trapped him inside the dirt devil!!

Hurray!

But now... I have to get him out some way :/ I put the dirt devil in the bathroom so I wouldn't be so freaked out lol except I really don't want it weaving webs in there. So I'll get a friend to empty it!

Seriously though? How scary is that to wake up to?? Everyone I've talked to haven't seen any spiders at all!

I've seen two. One in the hotel room when I first got here, and now this one...

I hope that's it for awhile!

Anyway, think thin lovelies! xoxo

♥, Mint.

Lonely.

Morning,

I'm feeling kind of depressed to day... I miss home.

I miss my mom, and my dog, and my cozy bed... and it's been a week since I got here.

this is going to be a hard year i'm thinking.

Right now I have my teddy bear on my lap and the idea of not eating today in my head; because, if I'm thin I wouldn't be too big to hug, and I wouldn't be too ugly to love.

If I become empty by not eating, the feelings of loneliness will disappear...

right?

Today I'm going to the beach with a friend to do some reading (that's all my life will consist of this year, reading text books) and then I'll come back to the campus and READ SOME MORE.

Then tomorrow I'll read, AGAIN.

Getting out of eating today is simple. My friend doesn't live on res so when I say "Oh, I'm just going to wait 'till I get back on campus so I can use my food card." she won't even question it. And then no one will be monitoring my dinner because I'll be alone, like always.

** tip for not eating crap food: always remember that it won't make you happy. It will for a split second yes, but after you'll feel even worse because you realize what a fat cow you are. ALSO, remember that hunger is a good thing. If you're stomach is growling it means a fairy is in there making you thin, don't drown her. Lastly, you've probably already eaten all of the food you're craving at least once before, right? So you know what it tastes like. Why eat a cheeseburger if you've eaten so many in the past?

Yesterday I ate:

• fruit cup
• fruit bowl
• fruit bar (120)

Too much, too much. I know, I'm greedy as hell. Just another reason for me to fast today! I think I might try to pick up some diet coke when I'm in town today. Caffeine might make me wake up a bit.

Oh, and I'm cutting my meals on campus to 1 a day because they're so fucking expensive here. 10 bucks for a small salad? Ridiculous.

Think thin girls! xoxo

♥, Mint.

Quick Update.

Hi!

I'm just letting everyone know my mini plan for the next couple of days! :D

I'm weighing myself on Monday morning. Hoping to be in the 130s. I've weighed myself with about 3 pounds of clothes on and I'm 147.5 (aka 144.5).

I usually lose about 2 pounds a day when I try so if I really try I should be able to make it!

I'll be pissed as hell if I'm not in the 130s lol so wish me luck!

♥ always,

Mint.

Lovin' Lyfe.

Helloo~

Today was awesome, again.

and sunny, again. loll

Psych was great, the teacher is awesome, I'm stoked to do the research assignment, and yeah. I. LOVE. IT.

Sociology was okay. LOL. But honestly, it's sociology... it can never be that great. I'm scared of that class though because it can get boring during those sorts of lectures so I'll have to keep focus!

Creative writing was good! Everyone in my class though is soooo good at writing! I feel so stupid in there! >.< I'll have to read more I guess, so I can have a broader vocabulary!

OH, and I read 20 pages of pronoun/verb rules for my writing course today... SO FREAKIN' BORING OMG.

On a lighter note however, the facility guys got the garbage bag from the 9 foot deep garbage can and ripped it open, spilling garbage EVERYWHERE, just so they could get my ring! ♥ Isn't that lovely?

Today was really good for food too! I had:

• a salad
• a fruit cup

The next few days I'm worried about how they'll play out because tomorrow I only have one class (Astronomy- 11:30-12:30) and then it's the weekend. I know I'm going to town so I might eat there... RAH I don't like not knowing every little detail! lolol

Anyway, I'm really tired. It's been a busy couple of days! Sorry my blog's so boring haha NO CONFLICT I KNOW. -.-'

sorry.

I hope you all have lovely dreams tonight! ♪

xoxo

♥, Mint.

First Day of Classes!

Bonjour mon petit chéries!

First day of classes was great! Even though I lost my ring in the garbage can... :(

BUT OTHER THAN THAT IT WAS GREAT!

French: awesome. OF COURSE. It's super basic and everyone I sit with doesn't know any French so I feel super smart lol

Astronomy: LOVE IT. It's in a big lecture hall and I feel so cool and grown up! And the course outline looks like it'll be a good class!

Writing: ... LAME. All the kids are Chinese and don't know English LOL but there's 3 other caucasians except one's a couple and the other I don't know about yet lol she has to take it because she got 69% in grade 12 English instead of 70% just like meee!! There's also this cute 1/2 French 1/2 Japanese guy in that class who has a sexy French accent! And he's super polite and nice! :) Too bad he's not the guy in France I met last summer... :(

Tomorrow I have psych, sociology, and creative writing. I'm so stoked for psychology! (that's my major)

I can't believe how much I love uni lol and because it's like a mini town and everyone's doing their own thing, I feel less worried about what people think of me! Like, today after French, my stomach was growling sooo much that it was embarrassing, so I bought a booster juice and sat, BY MYSELF, and drank it!

I was proud :3 lolol

Anyway,

This is what I ate today:

• a booster juice
• a salad

Not bad not bad! :)

Hopefully it stays this easy~!

Think thin!!

♥, Mint.

Hey Ocean.

Helloo~!

Today's my first official dat of classes! I have French, Astronomy, and that stupid Writing course today!

Yesterday was orientation which was no help at all lol my group leader was still drunk from the night before -.-

Oh well! I met a new friend and someone else who's in my french class so it was worth it I guess!

There was also a concert in the field which was awesome! The band was called Hey Ocean and their from Vancouver! They play indi music (btw how did indi become SOOO popular??) and I really like them so check them out here!

Yesterday I ate:

• a little less then half a packet of unseasoned ichiban (the seasoning had beef broth so I couldn't have it)
• and a small green salad lol

Plus we walked all of campus again and up and down all the stairs, so I obviously burnt it all off lol

I think it's going to be SUPER easy to lose weight here! So I'm excited! :D

Think thin ladies! ♪

♥, Mint.

New Beginning.

Hey lovelies!

So guess where I am right now? My new dorm room!

Technically I moved in yesterday, but I didn't get around to finishing unpacking and settling in until tonight.

It's really awkward sharing a bathroom with someone and being able to hear EVERYTHING that's happening on either side of my walls and outside, but I think I'll manage. Once class starts I'm thinking everyone will quiet down because studying is crucial!

I have exactly three friends lolol -.- but they're nice and it means I'm not alone so I'm happy!

Tomorrow's orientation so I'll finally meet some people who are taking the same classes as me! It's weird how BA's are so popular yet I haven't met ANY yet! >.<

And then after tomorrow it's time for CLASS! Nerve racking of course! 300 people classes... I don't know how that'll go over!

Also I'm signed up for the gym here so once I gain some confidence I can work out all I want! ANDD go to the zumba classes! Another perk is that my dorm building is the furthest away from any of my classes, andddd there's stairs EVERYWHERE, anddddddd it's easier to take the stairs than the elevator which means four flights for me!

The food issue is AWESOME too! Because we all have to use a meal card and wait in a huuuge line up just to get a meal means that it's super easy to skip. Especially if I'm by myself! Who wants to eat alone? NOT ME.

So this is my plan for the moment:

• Breakfast: skip. OR, a coffee in my room.
• Lunch: skip. OR, a water in my room, OR a smoothie or salad with a friend.
• Dinner: salad with a friend.

It's scary not being able to know how they cooked everything in the caff lol I found out the other day that booster juice has like 300 calls per smoothie. That's insane.

Any who, while I've been gone I've been super stressed so I ate, and got hella fat... again. So I'm not weighing myself until I know I'm smaller.

So sorry for failing you all. :(

It's weird how when I'm stressed I eat, and when I'm depressed I don't.

This is a new life though! So there will be no more mistakes! :)

Night! xoxo

♥, Mint.