Christmas Plan.

Hurray for two posts in one day!

So I've been really stressing about going home for Christmas. My mom's Italian so Christmas is all about food. Funny thing is, no one eats it... but me.

And because I've eaten it in the past, there's always pressure to eat like that again.

SOOOO, I've devised a two step plan:

1. Pre-Christmas Prep: from today all the way to the 17th (when I fly home), I will fast. Maybe not the best decision before exams, but we'll just see how it goes. Alterations may be made!
2. Christmas: the tricky part of the plan, obviously... My idea is to chew-spit a lot. Like, take a butter tart, begin "eating it" and then halfway through, leave the room to get something, and spit/throw the rest out. Another plan is whenever my mom is not near me, throw out a bunch of food/dirty some plates, and then BAM I'm sooooo full!

The only problem is that I always feel soooo bad throwing away my mom's home cooked foods! But, whatever. If I had smartened up earlier this year I'd already be skinny and none of this would be a problem...

HOPEFULLY this idea works! Any other holiday tips I need to know? It'd be greatly appreciated!

Think thin~

♥, Mint.

Re-cap.

Woke up on day 2 being 3 pounds lighter. Good, good.

Later on in day 2 I got a "care package" from my mom. Binged, and threw the rest out except for some raisins that she sent.

Woke up day 3 down only 0.2 lbs but I figured that's still good for binging.

Later on in day 3 I binged/chew spat all the raisins -.- but now all the food is gone, thank god.

Today (day 4), I woke up down 1.5 pounds. Since all the food is gone, I have a full weekend of starvation, yay!

Think thinnnnn!

♥, Mint.

Day One.

complete :3

ifuckinghateyouifuckinghateyouifuckinghateyou.

Dear Fat Pathetic Bitch,

You are not going to eat for an entire week because you deserve to die.

That is all.

♥, Someone who's fucking fed up with you.

Vegan.

Hellooooo~~~

FUN FACT: eating less than 200 cals gains you 0.2 lbs. However, binging on chocolate, candy, noodles, and muffins (well over 1,200 cal) gains you 0.1 lbs.

T_T what the hell.

lol whatever, I'm happy, it's given me a "sign". If I go vegan, I won't physically be allowed chocolate! Or anything overly fatty/sugary.

I'm excited :)

I've been vegetarian for 6 years so I should in theory be able to do it!

I'll start by doing it healthily just so I can get into the swing of it. And then restrict from there.

I'll have one protein, one carb, one fruit, and at least serving of vegetables a day. If I do it right I should be able to keep it under 500 cal naturally.

I'll also have a calcium rich food (probably soy milk) every Monday, Wednesday, and Friday.

Christmas I won't be vegan (it just wouldn't be possible lol), and going out to restaurants I won't make a major deal of it.

Oh gee I'm so excited! :) Wish me luck! And if you want to go vegan with me, let's do it together!

Think thin!

♥, Mint.

Can I be skinny yet?

Helloo~

Today was basically the same as yesterday. Super tired, 260 cal eaten, study, study, study.

I only lost 0.1 pounds from yesterday... I'm slowing to an immediate halt, and I'm not happy.

Ugh, I hate my life.

Think thin

♥, Mint.

Tireddddd.

Salut~!

Today I'm the most tired person on the planet. I'm going to sleep right after I write/proof-read this lol.

I had about 260 cal today:

• oatmeal (110)
• carrots and dip (100)
• soup (50)

I'm still freaking out about gaining, thinking I'm bigger and bigger each day even though I'm losing weight, and I hate it! >.< I'm like crazy paranoid, and anxious all the time because of it...

ugh, I hope I don't gain.

In other news I realized I haven't had my period for about 7 months! You may remember me saying I had my period in September, but I actually overreacted because it was only a bit of spotting. SO IT DOESN'T COUNT. I'm glad I don't get it anymore. I hate that thing...

Think thin beauties! And sweet dreams! xoxo

♥, Mint.

It's already Friday?

Hi!

I lost 0.4 lbs from yesterday... not impressed.

However, today my stomach was growling. That's a good sign. When I'm hungry, I lose weight :) plus, I've noticed that when I have soup I usually tend to hold a little weight, so hopefully tomorrow's weigh-in is better.

got to stay positive.

I had roughly 250 calories today. A veggie sushi roll for supper and a salad for lunch.

At the salad bar there was this pre made salad with bocconcini (tiny mozzarella balls) and tomato. NOW HOW COULD I PASS THAT UP? IT WAS REAL MOZZARELLA. So I added two bocconcini to my normal salad and went on my way. What I didn't know was that there was BASIL in the pre made salad! And, it was amazing!

I miss cooking SO bad. And having real foods, and real flavours! And most importantly, making things my way. Having a mandatory meal plan at uni sucks balls. :(

On another note, my butt looks smaller! That's never happened before! It's smaller, kinda toned, and has like no dimples! I'm amazed! My butt is the second thing I hate most about myself, next to my thighs.

On the other hand. I feel fatter than yesterday AGAIN. I'm huge!

All I want is to be thin, that all. Please oh please let it somehow happen faster!

Think thin ladies!

♥, Mint.

Down but Up.

Hello,

I lost some weight again, but not enough >.< in the past I've usually lost about 2 pounds a day, this time it's 0.5-1.0 lbs.

THAT'S TOO SLOW. I NEED IT GONE. NOW.

And that's with my diet pills! But I think the manufacturers have fucked with the dosage and ingredients and stuff because I don't feel awake while using them compared to in the past where I couldn't sit still.

In other news, I had a better food day than yesterday! :D 170 cal! I had soup for lunch, and salad for supper. And now I've finished the high-ish calorie soup my mom has sent me! (130 cal per cup)

Innnnn other, OTHER news, I feel fatter than ever. Even though I'm slowly getting smaller.

I feel just as fat as I was at my high weight, and I hate it.

My cheeks, my chin, my arms, my stomach, hips, thighs, calves, and of course butt. EVERYTHING IS BIGGER... buuuut not? It's an odd feeling for sure... :s

Anyway, think thin!

♥, Mint.

TODAY.

Hi!

Like the title? I couldn't think of a better one :p

Today was pretty good. I'm down in weight and have eaten 230 cals at most(I always estimate higher, just incase). It was GOING to be 170, but my friend wanted me to try this crispy rice roll thing that she got while in China so, I did. TOTALLY NOT WORTH IT.

But, it's under 300, so I suppose I didn't do too bad for the day. I'm drinking lots of water again tonight and pacing and stepping on my text books also. I don't really know if that does anything but it make me feel a little better :) I miss working out on my treadmill/elliptical at home :(

i miss home...

That reminds me! In exactly a week I'll be back at my Grannie's house for Remembrance Day long weekend. And we all remember what happened last time I was there! >.<

But this will be better I swear. This time, no pies, no noodles, no rice krispie squares, no ice-cream, and no insane amounts of chocolate. And most importantly, no binging when I get back.

That's what really got me last time... :s I'm such a fucking failure...

OH WELL, keep calm and carry on! This time will be better!

Think thinnnn!

♥, Mint.

Good News?

Hello!

Today I lost weight, but not the amount I was hoping for! >.<

Feeling defeated before I even got up this morning I decided to skip psychology (only class of the day) and try to get caught up in some things/mope at how fat I am.

Feeling mopey and pathetic, I gave up my fast (at around 12:30-1:00).

So in to-to, today I had:

• some carrots and low-cal dip
• 3 mouthfuls of fat-free yogurt
• a pack of low-sugar oatmeal (110 cal)

I felt guilty later on and have been downing the water ever since.

I didn't go through the calories I actually consumed until a little while ago and I'm... BAMBOOZLED.

I keep thinking I must have missed something more because no matter how many calories I add (maybe an extra tbsp of dressing here, an extra mouthful of yogurt there) I still get under 300 calories!

Not what I was wanting in a day where I did nothing, but much better than I essentially thought! I was actually expecting to see 600-800 calories lol shows where my head is...

However good under 300 cal may be, I'm still really worried. I did basically NOTHING today, barely left my chair while studying... SO, I've been trying to walk around my room to burn off some extra calories. I've also made a "step" out of three of my text books!

Sometimes I slip because of the lack of friction between each books cover, and almost fall and die though lol but that's okay!

Think thin lovelies! ^.^

♥, Mint.