Sorry I suck at posting...
It's just I have nothing to say really. I fail at life. How many times can I make a post about that, I mean seriously?
I'm fat, I have no control, I'm imperfect, I suck, I don't deserve life, I'm worthless... why can't I let myself disappear?
There's two demons in my head:
The one who makes me eat, because I'm "happy", and it's "normal"
And the one who knows that thin is true happiness.
Why can't I just tune the first one out? Others can do it. That's why people ARE SKINNY. If I had tuned that first voice out the moment I heard the second one, I would've been long gone by now.
I want to be good, I want to listen and to obey, but the fat ass voice just keeps getting in the way.
i don't want to be a failure...
no love today sorry, just Mint.
love you starshine, you are writing stuff that i am writing all the time at the moment. I really know how you are feeling, we have a lot of self-hatred going on at the moment, non?
ReplyDeletewe CAN do this, apparently we just need to start believing we can. I'll try, try with me?
xxx