I'm not sad anymore.

Today was my first day of actual classes and it was so bad omg.

I went to where I thought the class should be and it wasn't there. Like, it didn't exist.

So I went to the office section of that floor and asked one of the profs if she knew where it was. She was puzzled and said maybe the class is really small and that it could be held in one of the study areas, so I went and checked and nope definitely wrong.

So I asked another prof and he said that maybe I was in the wrong building.

Long story short, I checked on his computer and yup wrong building, WHAT THE FUUUUUUUCK. French is always in the art building!!!

So I finally got to the right building, and since I was late I had to knock on the door, and everyone saw me and looked and stared and all the seats were full so I had to look around and look even more stupid and then I found a chair and sat down AND THEN GUESS WHAT HAPPENED.

THE TEACHER ONLY SPEAKS FRENCH DURING LECTURE.

Since it was the first day, the class only lasted half an hour (normally it's an hour and a half), THANK FUCKING GOD, BECAUSE I DIDN'T UNDERSTAND ANYTHING HE WAS SAYING THE ENTIRE TIME.

I LEGIT UNDERSTOOD LIKE 5 WORDS. IN HALF AN HOUR.

GOD FUCKING DAMMIT, AND THAT'S SUPPOSED TO BE MY EASY CLASS.

Tomorrow I have my harder French class, fuuuuuuuuuuuuuck.

Anyway, when I was walking to the book store to see if the line was too big, I ran into the only friend I have here! Let's call himmmmmmm Jerk. Because he is one lol

I haven't seen him since first year so I had to do the whole hug and catch up thing. Which was good! He gets my sense of humour and I get his, and he's got a lot of friends (acquaintances really) so imma steal them all >:)

He invited me out to this pub that he was going to with his roomie whom I met once in first year (he's super cool and really into music and remixing things and yeah, I want to be his friend) and I told him I was down for that, then he had to go to class and I went home.

While at home I got a phone call from that clothing store I'm trying to get a job at and I got another interview for tomorrow! Soooo I'm thinking I basically got the job lol WOOP WOOOOOP!

Anyway, I got Jerk and his roomie to pick me up later for the pub and ahhhhhh his roomie is WAAAY HOTTER THAN I REMEMBER

AND HE DRIVES A SICK CAR

IT'S ALL TRIPPED OUT WITH THOSE LIGHT THINGS INSIDE AND THEY FLASH WITH THE BASS

AND OMG HIS SPEAKERS ARE SO GOOOOOOD

Mhm mhm! And he's single this year! Woop wooooop!

Anyway, his car is sick and he's super nice and makes conversation so things weren't ever weird at all! He's in engineering and on campus all the engineers hang out together in a nerdy little club. I've learnt that engineers are either hellaaaaa sexy, or super nerdy; there is no in between.

So we walk in to this pub and who do we see at the super huge table? A bunch of fucking engineers.

So we sit with them obviously, Jerk's roomie got da hook upzzzz. It should be noted that girls are rarely found in the engineer program. And it should be noted even more that I was the only girl, sat in a pub, with at LEAST 14 boys.

How am I even getting into these situations? It's the weirdest thing.

I talked to a few of them because I was telling Jerk's roomie (we're going to call him J.R from now on) about how I'm trying to join the sorority to gain friends (lol) and he's like, "Really? A lot of these guys are in the main fraternity!" *turns to the guys* "Who here's in a fraternity?" *all the sexy boys hands go up*

I talked to them a bit about all that junk and I guess I'll be seeing them at the Greek BBQ later next week ;)

Later the guy beside me started making conversation and I learnt about the three different types of engineers. There's the classic building ones, the ones who make technology, anddddddd I forget the other lol the guy I was talking to as well as his friends beside him/across from me were all technology engineers. So I asked them about electricity (because that really confuses me) and physics (which confuses me even more) and then it changed to space and the brain and yeah it was a really good conversation! It made me feel better because they were just as confused as I was with all that stuff! One guy was like (super serious too), "YOU need to be a scientist or an engineer or something because you've got the mind for it for sure." I just laughed because I can't even handle French or bio-psych.

Guys are so much easier to talk to than girls I swear to god.

After the pub, Jerk, J.R and I went back to their place and just chilled really.

I learnt that J.R can play guitar reallllllly fucking well, and that he's also super artistic, and made a hover board in class once, and that HE MAKES REALLY GOOD COFFEE. AND HE MADE ME SOME AND IT WAS DELIC'.

IT WAS AN AMERICANO WITH FRESHLY GROUND ESPRESSO BEANS AND HE DID IT SO PERFECTLY WOW.

I NEVER LIKE ANYONE'S COFFEE EXCEPT FOR MINE SO THIS IS BIG GUYS.

We all watched New Girl together and I was sat in the middle and I felt like a pimp the entire night just saying lol.

At the end of the night J.R somehow ended up much closer to me than where he started lol I don't know how to feel about thaaaaaat hahaha

Anyway, we might all go out tomorrow night to this red bull party the school has every year (1st year it lasted sooooo fucking long, until 3 at least), so hopefully I'll get nice and drunk :3

Tomorrow also I'm having coffee with my sort of friend from 1st year, and then I have to go to the sorority meet and greet, and then I have to go to my interview, buy some clothes, and somehow fit school into there too lol

I've also realized that I'm not depressed anymore, like legit. There's none. It's a weird feeling when you're so used to sadness.

I think this happened sometime during the summer for sure. Like, I'm actually happy, and excited. And trying to say yes to things, and talk to people and lose my insecurities.

So yes, I'm not sad anymore.

I feel weak for saying that, but it's true, I think. Like, I understand there will be good days and bad days, but overall, I'm happy.

And that's good.

- Mint.