Frustrationssss.

Today was better.

I had a really good sleep, and my coffee this morning was AMAZE.

You know how sometimes your coffee is better than normal for some reason? Like everything's the same, but it's just better? IT WAS LIKE THAAAAT.

Work was boring, but it went relatively quickly and I got to have social interaction which I think helped.

I got home and made a really yum soup, and then really wanted gummy worms. And just sugar in general.

I talked the roomie into going to the fro-yo place, but it wasn't what I was wanting apparently because it didn't really make me happy.

I have to go buy some apples or something because I seriously crave soooo much sugar all the timeeeee.

ANYWAY, so I'm in a good mood and I want to GO FOR A WALK. BUT IT'S 10:30 AND IT'S COLD AND I HAVE NO FRIENDS.

DO YOU SEE THE ISSUE HERE? DO YOU SEE?

Fuck.

ALSO, earlier, when I wanted ice cream? I texted my boring friends (the pledge ones) saying, "ICE CREAM" and one didn't reply and the other replied with, "Lol."

Omg. Am I the only person who fucking GOES CRAZY WHEN PEOPLE REPLY LIKE THAT?

THE CAPITALIZATION OF THE FIRST L.
THE PERIOD AT THE END.
THE FACT THAT IT WASN'T ACTUALLY A REPLY.

WTF.

I FUCKING WANT TO MURDER HER.

HOW DID I GO FROM BEING HAPPY-GO-LUCKY, DREAMING OF ICE CREAM AND GUMMY WORMS, TO WANTING TO COMMIT A FELANY (IS THAT WHAT MURDER IS? I HAVE NO IDEA. IDEK WHAT A HOMICIDE IS).

THIS IS MY PERSONALITY. I SWEAR TO GOD. PEACEFUL FLAME, TO RAGING FIRE IN 0.5 SECONDS.

I don't get how people can be so TAME. AND BORING!?!?! Like, do you not have any passion? Is that the problem? FUCKING YELLLLLLL! FUCKING FLAIL YOUR ARMS ABOUT! DANCE! SING! SCREAM! WHISPERRRRRRRRR. CAPS LOCK. ADD A "BAHAHAHA" TO YOUR "HAHA"

LIKE.

FUCKING.

LIVE.

EXPERIENCE.

BE ALL OF YOU ALL THE TIME.

THAT'S WHAT I DON'T LIKE ABOUT PEOPLE. THEY'RE THEMSELVES ONLY IN FRONT OF CERTAN PEOPLE WHO MEET THEIR APPROVAL. WHY? THAT'S GAY. YOU MAKE YOURSELF SEEM SO DUMB AND PLAIN IN FRONT OF THE WORLD YOU KNOW.

ALSO.

SINCE I'M ALWAYS ON CASH AT WORK (OMG I'M STILL RAGING IN CAPS, SORry I'll calm it down here, deep breathe, in and out, OKAY LET'S GO) I deal with a lot of customers.

AND YOU WOULDN'T BELIEVE, BELIEVEEEEE how many people like, aren't even people.

They come up to the till, and don't even acknowledge my PRESENCE. They assume I know what card they're flashing at me, WHEN THEY'RE FLASHING THE BACK OF THE CARD. BUT I MEAN REALLY, WHEN DOES ANY CASHIER NOT ASK HOW YOU'RE PAYING?

AND UM, PEOPLE DON'T EVEN SAY BYE. LIKE I THINK IT'S MORE AWKWARD NOT SAYING BYE THAN SAYING BYE.

RIGHT?

RIGHT???

I blame phones. People are so wrapped up in the internet they forget how to interact with actual people and like, be in the moment.

You know? YOU KNOW?! I don't know. I wish I had more friends. I really want to go for a walk....

I wish my dad was here, he'd go for a walk with me.

I'd say that I wish that my mom was here, but when we go for walks she gets all scared, AND whenever we go for walks together, it's like a MISSION. SO it's not that fun lolol

- Mint.