Note to self.

STOP IT. STOP IT. JUST FUCKING STOP IT.

Stop thinking of yourself as a failure. You haven't actually failed. Dropping out of something that you're not so into is not failing. You made a decision, an executive one at that and now you're free.

You're not failing, you're not becoming a disappointment. You're ripping off chains, and tearing down walls.

Yeah it's scary, because you might just get crushed under falling bricks, and you don't know what lies in the great beyond, but... isn't it worth the risk?

You've lived 20 years in the same place; staring at the same four walls. You've been secure, and you knew exactly what would happen every minute of every day.

But this wasn't something you found comfort in, was it? Security makes you feel shackled, and trapped. You craved adventure and kept your head in the clouds, a form of escapism, I'd say.

So look now! You're finally doing it. You're walking outside, you're demanding freedom, you're at the beginning of a path, a path that you will build. There's no right way, there's no wrong way. You don't know where you're going, and there's nothing wrong with that! As long as you move.

Standing still, that's failure. Letting time race by while you simply implode within yourself.

If you're unhappy, fucking do something to make you feel better. Read a book, paint a picture, go outside.

Prune out the people in your life who make you wait. Keep the ones that follow the current. Because you know what? That's what you're doing! You're following your current, isn't that cool?

You've always admired the free spirit. But never thought of yourself as one. Is that because you never had the space to breathe and move? I think so. Because now you're moving and you're breathing and sighs of relief are pouring out of you; even though you're terrified and sunk in a pit of helplessness.

You're free! You're free! And it's your time to fly! You will make mistakes, but you will learn from them. That's why mistakes exist; they're tools.

You'll fall, you'll get back up.

You're a phoenix and you're meant to change and be reborn. So don't be afraid when you feel yourself dying.

So fucking stop planning to self-destruct already. Stop thinking of tomorrow as today. Stop being sad. Just stop.

You've been given freedom. Not everyone gets that. Not everyone wants that. But you have it, and I think it's quite obvious that you want it to.

So run with it! Live simply, so that you can have more time to soar, and keep those goddamn feet off the ground; it's not for you.

You can do it, don't you worry. Just live and if you don't like something, change it, because you can.

- Mint.